As the implications of Thursday's defeat started to sink in, a list began to form in my mind: the individuals responsible and those I want gone from meddling in the affairs of my football club.
Spurs have been run aground from top to bottom. The decision was taken to oust Daniel Levy, hardly a fan favourite, but replacing him with a collection of 'suits' with little footballing IQ set the ball rolling. From there, it has simply snowballed.
Our recruitment policy is scattergun at best, and we seem unable to keep players fit for the chop-and-change tactical systems we employ. And now to cap it all off, the abysmal decision-making process has finally infected the first-team squad.
In N17, it seems like we are incapable of going 10 minutes without setting fire to something. The floor is covered in the ash of catastrophic red cards, premature or delayed sackings, and formations that make little to no sense.
The only people to walk away untouched by blame are Archie Gray and the fans.
Gray has been used to plug every gap and fix every tactical deficiency. It feels like the fate of the club sits on his 19-year-old shoulders, a burden far too heavy for someone of his age. He is a mechanic spraying WD-40 on an F1 car whose wheels have fallen off.
Meanwhile, the fans are the people who have been forced to witness mistake after mistake. Those in the stadium on Thursday night have paid roughly £300 per home Premier League win over the past two seasons.
There is little comfort on offer right now. So, I'll turn to my list. I'll repeat it every night before sleep in the hope that when I wake, we'll have finally made a correct decision...